WAITING SEASON

I just got back from such an amazing weekend away with friends. On the way back, my best friend and I were talking about how it feels so weird being in this in between stage of life where we're adults but aren't quite fully independent and doing what we really want to be doing.

This summer has been such a growing and learning experience for me. There's been a lot of great times this summer, but I've found myself often feeling out of place or longing to be somewhere else, doing something else. The hardest part about going to college out of state is the summer time- hands down. As much as I love spending time with my family and catching up with friends from home, it's so difficult leaving your best friends, roommates, and the life you've invested in. I know so many people who feel or have felt this way. I've decided that I'm in a waiting season. I'm not quite where I want to be yet, but I know I'm where I need to be. The Lord has been teaching me some things during this "waiting season" and I wanted to share them with you!

One of the biggest things I've been learning is a shift in my perspective. Despite the circumstances we find ourselves in, the one thing we can control is our perspective on it. It's never easy and honestly takes a lot of humbling, but it's such an important thing to do. I realized instead of dwelling on the fact that I wasn't in the exact place I had hoped to be this summer, I needed to focus on the things I got to do this summer because of coming home. I was offered an amazing internship and got to spend quality time with my family and friends here. I'm the type of person that is always wanting the next season of life. I get so excited for the future that I so often find myself not taking advantage of the moment I'm in. I'm learning to take one day at a time when it comes to my faith and growing deeper with Jesus. Slowing down and taking one day at a time has allowed me to be more present and available not only for the people around me, but also for God. Something I used to pray all the time was that I would be more mindful to be available for God. I love seeing him show up in the small day to day things!

Another big thing I've known but feel as if I'm being shown again is how faithful our God is even when we aren't and least deserve it. This summer I've seen so many prayers answered in my life and the people around me that I honestly forgot I even prayed for. Just because we have bad days and dry seasons in our faith does not mean our God stops working and stops pursuing us. His love for us is literally never ending and it's such a beautiful thing to see!!

The last thing I've really learned is to be grateful for the season I'm in. I know Jesus is growing me and preparing me for the next thing life has for me and that's so cool! I serve and follow such a good God. A waiting season can also mean a resting season. Instead of being so caught up in what's next, I'm deciding to be patient and rest in what He's trying to show me now.

Time is flying by so fast and so often we want it to slow down, but once it does we're quick to become impatient for what's next. The challenge of this season, is slowing down and taking life one day at a time. I'm learning to relinquish control of my life and what's next, knowing that whatever it is, I'll be ready for it.

As twitter has been saying, thanks for coming to my ted talk!! This topic is definitely something more vulnerable but has been on my heart for a while and wanted to share! Thanks for reading!

-kerr